News

I have debated about posting our upcoming news. I have thought about it and thought about it. I have concerns due to I know that some of the people that might want to cause trouble used to read my blog but you know what.. I really don't care. I am excited and happy about it and want to share it here with people I care about and with people I have come to care about through my blog and Ron's ..

OK no more beating around the bush.

Ron and I have been talking about it for a while now. With Kyle and Chelsea's consent and with the acceptance and consent of all of the kids Ron will be adopting my kids. He will be adopting Kyle and Chelsea. Even though she is 18 she wants him to adopt her too.. and that is fine with him. This is just something we all want. I don't know how long the process takes but I understand that it isn't that long or that expensive when it is a step parent adoption and when there is no need to have parental rights terminated. As the kids biological father is deceased there will be no need of any of the usual legal steps.

My kids will always love and remember their biological father, they will always consider him "daddy" but they have a wonderful relationship with Ron and although this adoption is in no way necessary to solidify the relationship they have with him it is something that we all want.

We would in no way prevent them from contact with any members of their father's biological family that they want to be in contact with. I know they want to still see their papaw and they will of course still be able to do that. They will also still have the large extended family they have had since Ron and I got married. Nothing will change in any of that.

Just thought I would share that with y'all.. When things get moving I will keep y'all updated and when the big day arrives I will definitely let everyone in on the celebration.

Y'all have fun

The Newest Grandbaby

We are getting a new grand baby in September. Tuesday we went with Sierra for her full ultrasound. The tech did a good job of finding fingers and toes and bottom and top, she even got what looked like it waving, being Sierra's child that is entirely possible Sierra has never met a camera she didn't like, then we asked if she could tell if it is a boy or girl. She found the genitals and we all saw something that looked a lot like a penis. She wouldn't commit to saying for sure that is what we were looking at because Sierra isn't quite as far along as her records had her seems someone wrote a number incorrectly on her chart when she was 14 weeks along and made her 18 weeks. When in fact she is only 16 1/2 weeks now, anyway the next day Sierra was talking to her doctor at her follow up appointment and mentioned the appearance of what we thought was a penis, so the Dr did a quickie ultrasound right there and yep sure enough there was a penis. So it looks like we are getting a grandson. I am so excited.. I would be excited either way girl or boy.. I just love my grand babies.. We did get a DVD of some of the ultrasound pics so.. here they are.. oh yeah his name will be Isaiah Christopher.. well that is what she says right now .. Cloe was supposed to be Olivia Rose.. no matter.. Mamaw will call him anything his mommy names him as long as I get to spoil him...

I love the face pic.. wow have ultrasounds changed since I had my last baby.. of course that was 13 yrs ago.. OK now I feel old my baby is 13.. the fact that my oldest daughter is making me a mamaw again doesn't make me feel old.. but Kyle being a teenager does.. I know I'm a weirdo..

Y'all have fun

Will this year never end?

I don't even know where to start.. I don't even know what all I am feeling right now.. Those of you who read Ron's blog know that on Sunday November 25 my ex hubby killed himself.. The aftermath of that has been an incredibly horrible nightmare that I wish I could wake from..

Tuesday morning we left for FL.. It was a hard trip in itself.. the car that Sierra, Nick and Cloe were driving got overheated and we had to do some minor repairs to it and some major praying over it.. it finally made it to our destination..

When we got there we tried to find out from the family just exactly where the service was being held.. no one seemed to know.. that sounded a bit fishy to me that they wouldn't know where his service was.. Sierra got on the phone and called all of the funeral homes to see what she could find out.. she finally found the right one..

We were at first told that I was not welcome at the service.. It seems as how most of the family is blaming me for Ronnie's death. Sierra called Linda ( ronnie's wife) she said she didn't think it was a good idea for me to come but she wouldn't oppose me coming in and paying my respects and then leaving.. Wednesday morning there were phone calls from the family threatening me to stay away.. my kids wanted and needed their mother to be there with them, I called the police and arranged for an officer to be there to make sure everything went ok.. that didn't work .. when we got to the funeral home Chella and Sierra got out of the cars and went into the funeral home to say goodbye, Kyle didn't want to go without me.. as soon as the family saw the children they started screaming obsenities and threats at me.. they started to charge towards the car.. the police arrived about that time and kept them by the funeral home.. I had stayed by the truck the whole time I never even got close to going to the funeral home.. The family continued to rant and rave and make threats even going as far as knocking Ronnie's stepmom down inside the funeral home and throwing punches.. all the while screaming vile and obscene lies at my children.. it was the most disgusting, disrespectful spectacle I have ever witness and I hope to never see anything like that again..

After the service we were escorted by the police to the city limits to keep the family from following us.. We went back to our hotel for some much needed time to grieve and regroup... I went with my best friend Mauritha to get some food and brought it back to the hotel, we ate and talked.. Mauritha had to go to work, the kids and I went to the beach.. I had promised Ronnie a long time ago I would sing a song for him at his funeral.. since they wouldn't let me go to the service I went to his favorite spot on the beach and sang for him there with my kids around me.. I think he would have liked that.. We went back to the hotel.. Ron told me on the way back that he had heard someone at the pool with the same name as Ronnie's nephew.. I told him.. lots of people have that name.. when we got back to the hotel, the kids asked if they could go play pool.. we told them yes.. as they were walking around they ran into Ronnie's brother , his wife and some other family members. The kids came back to the room and told us who they had seen, we packed up and left.. we just didn't want to deal with anymore drama.. we drove as far as Brunswick GA. got a room and fell asleep.. We got up the next morning and drove on home.

We have been trying to pick up the pieces of our lives and our kids lives and get back into some sort of routine.. the kids went back to school today.. hopefully concentrating on that will help to take their minds off everything else.. we are still getting threats from Ronnie's family and are taking the necessary steps to protect ourselves.. Ron and I are going to hold on to each other and our children for the duration.. we will come out all that much stronger as a family.. our faith in God and each other will help us through this as well as the support and love of our many friends and family.. Just keep us in your prayers..

y'all take care..

Broken Promise

I know, I know.... I promised not to get so lax in posting and then I went and did it again.. In my defense I have been having medical issues with my hands and have not been able to type much.. the arthritis isn't getting any better.. but so goes life..

Cloe the latest love of my life is a complete joy to have around she is getting so big.. It is amazing to see the way she is developing into this tiny little person. She has a wonderful personality. She rarely cries, smiles all the time and charms everyone she comes in contact with.. I have discovered though after 4 months of babysitting an infant I am a bit older than I thought I was.. I love having her here.. I love taking care of her and seeing those beautiful smiles.. and I love when mom and dad pick her up at the end of the day and take her home.. give an old lady a break ya know.. I guess it was just as hard when my own children were little but I had 3 of them at 22 and 4 by 27 that I figured wandering around with spitup stained clothes, no makeup, hair in a perpetual ponytail, and never sleeping was just normal..

Chelsea has been having a rough time lately she went through a very harrowing and personal experience and is now dealing with the reality and aftermath of what happened we are taking it day by day and she is getting counselling.. I am not one of those parents that think I can provide everything she needs and I know when to step away from a situation that is too close to home and get professional advice and counselling when needed.. I hate it when parents don't realize that children sometimes can't talk to the people they love most about things that have hurt them the most and take it personally when the kid doesn't talk to them.. she needs my love, she needs my support, and she needs my wisdom to know there are things that I won't be well equipped to handle alone and will find her someone who is..

I lost my grandmother on Halloween.. she was 94 yrs old she lived a very long life.. I know that the first 70 yrs of it was relatively happy and secure for her.. then after that with the alzheimers she was still happy most of the time but just didn't know what happiness meant anymore.. I am very grateful to have had her in my life for this long she was a wonderful, sweet, simply classy lady.. I will miss just knowing she was there... I love you Grammy.

Ron's book will be out soon.. I am sooooo excited and soooo proud of my honey.. I told him I have always been proud to be with him.. to be his wife.. to be a part of his family.. but I am proud of him for this too.. It takes talent to write, a gift of words and a whole lot of guts to put that out there for everyone to see.. I respect that.. reading the book for me is somewhat theraputic reminding me of what was then and what we learned to get to where we are now... and I love the idea of knowing that Ron loves me so much that he left this legacy of my mother for not only our family but to anyone that is struggling with an alzheimers patient and may need to just know there are others out there that have been there and come out the other side.. Mom has moved into the 3rd stage of this disease and most of the time doesn't really know me.. but that is ok.. I know her..

OH... I almost forgot.. Chelsea also started her first job today.. she said it was fun and she loved working.. I was thinking it is easy to love working when you don't have to... but I am still way happy for her and very proud of her. I also think that having the job will help her to not dwell on the other issues going on with her right now..

Kyle turned 12 last Thursday.. he had 2 parties and was the center of attention for several days.. which is always his favorite place to be.. It is amazing to me that he is that age.. he is so mature in several ways and very intelligent.. but sometimes I still see him as that little angel faced baby that spit mashed potatoes at me. ( he still doesn't like them) I know they all have to grow up but for some reason I had it in my head because he is the baby it wouldn't happen to him..

I am dealing with a pulled hamstring and torn muscle never again will I question why athletes have to take off from playing for so long with this injury that sucker HURTS!!.. I don't really know how I did it but somehow I did.. now all I want is to undo it and make the pain go away.. I am supposed to heat it 20mins every 2 hours and keep it elevated most of the day.. Yeah like that is gonna happen around here.. I have a baby to watch.. kids to cook for... a hubby to take care of.. and a house to clean.. not to mention all the other things people seem to find for me to do.. but I am trying to behave and not do too much.. I promise.. ok so I didn't keep my last promise in a post but I will this time... no really .. I will..

I guess I should post more often.. these marathon postings hurt my hands and Ron is already mostly nekkid and in the bed.. think I will go join him..

Y'all have fun..