I May Hate Myself In the Morning..

Ouch.. I have been wanting to get back into the gym for a long while now.. I have been wanting to get my body in some shape other than the shape it is in.. Today must be the beginning of that..Ron and I started about 2:30 this morning with our own private workout.. ( Russ update).. and knowing I was going with our friend Brandy to the local Y today.. I foolishly thought ok.. a little less sleep ain't gonna hurt me.. ( It was worth it at any rate)..

Brandy called me about 9 : 45 this morning wondering if I were still going or if I had chickened out on her.. I said in my most cheerful voice.. " I'm ready".. Her hubby had her car this morning so I drove over to pick her and her darling little girl up.. and as Brandy was admiring the "Ro" we were off .. we got there, I signed in as a guest.. and next thing I know I am walking 3 mph on an incline of 2 on a treadmill for 20 mins.. that part was ok.. that I can do.. I love to walk anyway.. so ok.. no problem.. then came the weights.. now you have to understand .. I used to work out 3 times a week.. but that was 20 yrs ago.. I ain't young anymore.. I ain't strong anymore.. so Brandy puts me on non wrist taxing machines and helps me adjust the weights and I promptly try to kill myself I think.. I don't remember being this weak.. 20 reps damn near killed me with 12.5lbs.. and that was on the leg lifts.. we don't want to go there with the rest of the machines.. those aren't for excersise.. those things were made for mid-evil torture.. I did make it through it.. I managed to do 2 sets of 20 reps on all the machines I could do without hurting my wrist.. and surprisingly I even managed to find some to work the upper body as well..

I feel pretty good.. I can feel my muscles planning a revolt for later on this evening.. and I know my back is gonna be in a pissy mood.. but I actually feel pretty good.. I am even thinking bout going back with her on Monday.. OMG.. I have truly lost my mind this time.. oh well.. at least it gets me out of my routine and I am doing something for me.. even if it does wind up killing me.. just kidding.. I know when I get used to going again I will feel and look better.. and that is something I need to do for me.. I am so used to doing everything for everyone that I think this will be good for me to do for me.. I don't want to lose weight.. I weigh right about 155 or so.. usually.. and at 5'8 that is a good weight .. I just want to tone my body from where I have already lost so much weight and get into better shape .. I think starting with 2 days a week I should be able to do it.. wish me luck..

TGIF.. I get my sweet Ron home for 2 days.. Yeah I know I had him home for 4 days last weekend.. but that was last weekend.. I miss him.. this is a whole new weekend.. and Ill take the 2 days when I can get em.. well think It is time for me to go.. umm .. lemme think.. oh yeah.. lay down and die till the tylenol kicks in..

Y'all have fun

Still Running

I know I have been negligent in my posting lately.. I just don't seem to have time to blog.. between running back and forth with Chris, dealing with the Chelsea drama.. (too much to go into right now) , and all the other things I have to do in a day.. by the end of most days I am ready to cuddle in the bed and go to sleep by around 8pm.. now Kyle has gotten into the mix of changing up my schedule.. he has 2 different afterschool activities he is involved with now and stays late 3 days a week.. you would think that would free up some time for me around his usual pick up time, it doesn't.. Because my life is so hectic I have to be very precise when scheduling things.. I have to know how long it will take me to do this or that and get back to where I need to be when I need to be there.. Kyle staying late 3 days a week is messing with that.. but I am sure I will adjust soon.. he has only been doing this for 2 weeks and last week was spring break so I had all sorts of time to fill.. That is my main problem.. I am so accustomed to running all the time and having almost every moment filled with things to do, when I don't have things to do or have too much free time I get antsy.. I don't know what to do with myself..

Today will be fun.. I get to go visit Ron's class as a business professional. Ron is having a community business leader in to talk with his class about what the real world expects of them.. I have a degree in business administration as does his principal.. he thought it would be a good chance for the students to take part in a round table type discussion of what employers look for in potential employees and some interviewing techniques for them as some of them are going to be graduating this year and will need some real skills for getting a job soon.. Oh yeah and there will be pizza.. I think the kids will pay more attention to that than me .. but hey they are teenagers and this is only the second day back after spring break..

I think I am gonna get off here and go clean something.. and then maybe take a short nap before I have to leave for Winchester..

Y'all have fun..

I Am Still Alive.. Sorta

I haven't forgotten I have a blog.. I haven't forgotten that some of my best friends actually read this thing.. I am just not quite human enough to write intelligently right now.. the trip kicked my ass.. In more ways than one.. the physical part of it is what is mostly bothering me now.. I forget sometimes that I only feel like I am in my 20's still... in fact my body knows I am getting close to the 40 mark even if my mind doesn't.. my recovery time isn't what it used to be.. My entire body is hurting right now and I seem to have lost all use of the index finger on my right hand.. makes typing interesting to say the least.. anyway.. just wanted to let anyone that is interested know I am still alive and will hopefully be back to myself in a few days..

Oh one major thing that I can't leave out of this .. I know some folks probably get tired of hearing about how wonderful Ron is.. but for y'all .. get over it.. for the ones that ain't tired of it... he is the main reason I made it back at all.. I had a panic attack ( actually two of them) for the first time in about 5 yrs.. and he was able to do something that no one has ever been able to do.. he talked me through them and gave me back my confidence in me and convinced me to take care of me so that I could take care of the kids I had with me on that winding mountain road.. so again my love.. thank you.. your voice in the night was my lifeline.. as your voice is always my comfort..

Y'all have fun

The New Toy

Well.. we got the Camaro.. Monday is still somewhat a blur.. we did so much that day I don't know where to start.. We took the Lumina back to the dealer.. when we got there the salesman tried one more time to get me to keep Rose.. he offered 1000.00 for me to keep her.. I was like no.. then he tried to sell me a blazer.. I don't want a blazer.. they are too big for what I was looking for.. and further more I wouldn't want to buy anything from this guy.. He gave us a check for the full amout of the car plus the tires we put on it.. and we were on our way.. to Ohio that is..

After stopping for lunch and Kyle ( who has a really bad cold/flu this week) getting his first pizza sub we called the man in Ohio and told him we were on our way.. We got there, I drove "lil' toy" and fell in love/lust whatever with him.. (the car).. we paid the man and headed for the next little hole in the wall town to get it legal to make the drive back home.. Yeah .. ok.. that is what we thought we were going to do.. When we got there the building was about the size of the bathrooms in our clerks office here and was staffed with people who didn't seem the least bit interested in helping anyone.. The lady looking bored asked Ron and I for our licenses and SS cards.. I just happened to have my SS card due to the fact I had lost the old one and got the new one in the mail last week, when it came I put it in my purse ( Ron calls it the black hole) and it was still there.. Ron however, didn't have his with him.. the lady tells us we need something with his SS# on it along with his name.. health ins card, voters registration card, something like that.. we had nothing.. We went back out to the truck.. Ron called our health insurance provider to ask them if they could fax the info to the clerk's office.. while he was doing that he rummaged through the glove box and came up with a letter from the SSA .. with his name, addy, and SS#.. I took the letter to the other bored looking lady there.. only to be told that a letter from the federal freakin government was not acceptable.. ok.. if that isn't acceptable what is.. Our insurance company couldn't fax the info due to privacy regulations.. Ron came in with this news.. I shared with him the unacceptability of the letter from the SSA.. he took the paperwork back from miss bored #2 and tells her " Fine, I'll drive it illegally then" and out we go..

We drove the 100 miles home without a tag.. we did have the title.. and the car was insured.. so if I had been stopped I would have gladly informed the officer about the incredible stupidity of the people of Ohio and hoped for the best. ( no offense to anyone from OH) I just don't like that state.. Did I ever mention my ex is from OH?

We got "toy" home and found out our clerks office is open til 6pm on Mondays.. yayyyy.. we rush down there.. they tell us the price on the title is not good enough and we will have to get a bill of sale from the seller stating the price..and the car would need to be inspected.. ok.. fine.. we called the dude in OH.. he said he would fax the info.. got the car insurance carrier to fax proof of ins.. The lady gave us a one day pass to drive the car down there on Tuesday for inspection.. By this time it is after 6... We head home again.. about a half hour after we sit down .. Ron's phone rings , It is Chas needing help moving furniture.. so we are off and running again.. we helped them get the part of their sectional that wouldn't fit in their truck home.. on the way home we stopped for food and smokes for me.. we finally walked back in the house around 8:45pm.. and promptly crashed..

I got the legal stuff done on "toy" yesterday.. and have been driving my little heart out ever since.. I love the little thing.. it drives well.. it shifts well.. and it is way cute.. I will have to get Ron to take a pic or two and post it here soon.. there is the wrist factor with driving a stick.. yes it hurts.. but no more than it hurts anyway.. and the I haven't driven a stick in 4 yrs and I am rusty factor.. but that is getting better.. but mostly there is the I love my car factor..

I thanked Ron Monday night.. he didn't know why I was thanking him.. I told him I was thanking him for dealing with all the hassle and stress just to make sure I had what I wanted.. how sweet is that.. Thank you again my love..

Whew.. I didn't realize this was gonna be a novella when I started.. talk about wrist pain.. I think I am gonna go forage for food.. medicate Kyle, then go sit on the porch and look at " toy" ..

Y'all have fun...

Confused Yet?

OK... the lumina is going back to the car place.. they called us Friday telling us that the car has a salvage title.. that means that at one time or another the car has either been totalled or salvaged.. this in itself is not really a big deal to me.. I have worked as a body repair person and mechanic.. I know that cars can be rebuilt with no harm done.. the problem for me is they didn't tell us this from the beginning and then they tried to rush me into making a decision whether or not to keep the car.. I don't like being rushed into things.. especially things about my money.. then on Saturday they offered us 500.00 to keep it.. we said "No" then the offer jumped to 600.00.. still " No" then the offer went to 800.00.. we said to ourselves.. "Maybe"... we drove the car this weekend.. It finally made the noise I was telling him about yesterday.. he called a friend about the noise.. the friend told Ron it is most likely the Torque Converter going out on it.. that is a 600.00 job to fix.. Umm the car is going back and they are going to pay me for the tires I put on it.. that is the end of it...

Ron and I had planned to meet with the carlot this afternoon and go car shopping afterward.. and guess what happened.. the guy in Ohio called saying he fixed the ignition problem with the Camaro and while he was at it he noticed the clutch was slipping so he fixed that too.. he wanted to know if I still wanted it.. Ummm yeah if it is fixed and running.. yeah I want it.. I feel good about that car.. I have since the first time I saw it..I don't know if we are going to get it today or tomorrow.. but I really want this car.. I know it has more miles on it.. but I just have a good feeling about the car.. I tried to talk myself out of wanting it.. I couldn't get it off my mind.. I kept thinking about it.. I told Ron all weekend I wanted to call the dude about the car.. he must think I am crazy.. I just can't help it.. when something gets in there it won't get out until I know why I keep thinking about it.. now I know.. I think this is the car I am supposed to have.. ok.. go ahead .. think I am crazy.. I do.. anyways.. time to start the running..

Y'all have fun

I Feel Good....

I don't know why.. but today I woke up in a great mood.. I actually slept last night .. that may have something to do with it.

My driving all over has resumed.. no there is nothing wrong with "Rose" she is fine. Chris called me yesterday and informed me that he has gotten his old job back with the landscaping company.. this is a good thing.. the bad news is.. Chris is living in Nicholasville and his job is in Winchester.. Beek's mom met me half way between Nich. and Lexington for me to pick up Chris this morning ( thank you Michelle) and we were off to take Kyle to school and then to Winchester to drop Chris off, then I had to come back home for Chelsea to pick up her things.. the fact that I told her to bring them with us in the first place and she didn't.. didn't seem to be a problem for her.. we stopped here, grabbed the books and it was off again racing to her school.. she was late..

We go to court again next Friday for the so called harassment charge against Chris, hopefully we will be able to get the judge to agree to Chris coming back home.. We can prove that Chris didn't harass John so there is no reason for Chris to not be able to live at home.. It pisses me off that Chris has not been found guilty of anything and he is being punished .. first by making him live in Nicholasville.. not that living with Michelle and Jeff is a bad thing but this is Chris' home.. this is where his family is.. second.. Chris lost a good job because of the moving to Nicholasville thing.. he was working mostly 2nd shift at that time and there is no way I could have picked him up at midnight and taken him home the 20 miles or so.. third.. Now that he has his other job back it makes the rest of us have serious transportation problems trying to help this young man keep a job and make a living.. this is causing him to not be able to do that .. and he hasn't even gone to trial yet...

Ok.. now I am through bitching..I still feel great.. I am still in a great mood.. I am going to Winchester again today.. there is a job there that I want.. it is for an assistant librarian.. for me that would be perfect.. I love books.. I read all the time.. what better place for me than in a library.. ok so it is a school library but I can see me now.. trying to encourage a love of books in young minds.. yep that would work for me.. wish me luck..

We have made no progress on the house yet.. trying to get our mortgage guy to get back with us.. apparently he is either not getting the messages or he isn't calling back right away.. we don't know.. but we really want to get a move on this.. hopefully he will get back with us soon..

I think I am gonna finish my house cleaning and get outta here to go apply for that job.. Y'all have fun..

Change of Cars

Well the camaro didn't pan out.. Friday, I was checking on the how to get the legal part of the car done thing so I could drive the car legally from Ohio to Kentucky.. I found out the only way I could do it was to have a bill of sale .. I couldn't get that without paying the dude for the car, so .. Ron took off from work, I went and got Chris and Beek and we headed for Ohio.. It was a great 1 1/2 drive... we got there and what do you know but the car wouldn't start.. we tried jumping it .. we tried the battery charger.. nothing worked.. so very bummed by that time we headed home.. the guy said he would call us if he found out what was wrong with it and that if we still wanted it fine.. if not that was fine too..

We got home and Ron got online trying to find something else.. something to cheer me up.. I was way down about the whole thing.. he found a cute little Chevy Lumina online.. we went and looked at it today... I drove it and I fell in love.. ok.. so it isn't a camaro.. it isn't HOT.. but it is cute and runs great and it is 2 yrs newer than the Camaro .. It is a beautiful shade of burgandy, almost like a bloodrose color.. I am seriously thinking of calling her Rose.. I don't know why I name my cars.. I just always have.. It usually doesn't take long for me to name them either.. I know it is strange.. but who ever said I was normal... Cars have personalities.. they do.. so they need a name.. It is that simple..

Anyway.. the rest of today's post is for my beautiful friend Red.. here ya go gorgeous..

Name: Tammy J.
Childhood Ambition: To be a doctor
.Fondest Memory: I have many wonderful memories.. One that comes to mind is the look in Ron's eyes as he sang " You had me from hello" to me at our wedding.
.Soundtrack: Hmmm thinking I really loved the music in " Blues Brothers 2000"
MusicRetreat: In my car alone on an open highway.
Wildest Dream: Win the lottery and build my dream home with enough land to build homes for all 7 kids.
Proudest Moment: Graduating College at age 22 after being told I wouldn't go because I got married at 16 and was pregnant with my 3rd child through most of my last yr of college. Also finally doing something totally for me and having gastric bypass surgery.
Biggest Challenge: Being a good wife, mom, friend, mostly being the best me I can be for me so I can be the best whatever to those I love.
Alarm Clock: Ron's cell phone.
Perfect Day: Most every day since May of 2002
First Job: Arby's.. I was 13 and lied about my age to say I was 16
Indulgence:Perfume, shoes
Last Purchase: Last was a cup of coffee,2 diet Dews and Cheetos, Oh yeah and my car.
Favorite Movie: Lady and The Tramp hands down..:
Inspiration: My kids, My hubby, people I love.
(Finish the sentence)

My Life: My life is not just what I am doing now or where I am going it is a combination of where I have been the me that I have become and who I can still grow to be surrounded with all the love anyone could want and the security of finally loving the skin that I'm in..

Y'all have fun

Life Is Good.

Snickers is alive.. Bobby the brother in law, finished putting the starter on Snickers last night.. we were not home, when I got here we had other things to do.. which I will tell ya about in a minute.. anyway.. when the other things got done, I went out and started my little van up.. It came to life as it always has... ahhhhhhhh no more running back and forth to Winchester.. I am sort of bummed about not getting to spend that much time with Ron but I figure he and I can spend time together around 2 am like we did this morning to make up for it... ( sorry Russ).. The kids are not entirely pleased about the resurrection of snickers.. It signals the end to breakfasts from Hardee's and Marathon.. poor little deprived children will just have to go back to cereal, oatmeal, waffles, or whatever else we might have in the kitchen..

Ok.. on to the "other" things Ron and I had to do when we got home last night.. no this will not be a close your eyes Russ thing...Ron and I had been looking at cars on e-bay the other night.. we spotted a 95 camaro z28 that I promptly fell in love with.. Ron put it on his watch list.. yesterday while we were at his school and he was finishing up some things he looked at his e bay watch list and asked me if I wanted him to bid on it.. I thought he was kidding, he wasn't.. he put the bid on it and with and hr and a half left on the auction we left the school and headed home.. when we got here I was anxious to find out if we were still the high bidder.. There was a package here that Ron had to look at first.. then the computer wasn't cooperating and had to be shut down and re booted.. finally he got online and checked.. we were not the high bidder.. Ron entered a new bid.. we were at 18 mins at that point.. I held my breath.. I paced.. I went outside to smoke.. I came back in with 2 minutes to go.. I sat breathlessly beside Ron and watched the last few seconds tick away... We Won!!!!! We are going to Ohio this weekend to get my camaro.. wooohoooooo .. I have always loved the camaro.. I have always wanted one.. now I have it.. I can't wait.. I am gonna look good in that car.. speaking of which.. I need to get my butt to the courthouse and get the temp tag and transfer form..

y'all have fun..

Blah Blah Blah

I feel blah today.. I don't have a clue why.. Ron was having a "foggy" day yesterday so I guess I can have a blah day today.. It isn't that I don't have anything to do.. I have plenty with Ian here..It isn't that I am particularly unhappy about anything.. I'm not.. I don't even think it is the looking for a job and no one wants to hire me thing anymore.. I just feel out of sorts...

I am getting my van back tomorrow.. Our brother in law Bobby came over after work yesterday and took the starter off.. but due to lack of tools and light he couldn't put the new one on, he will be here this afternoon with his own tools to finish the job.. that is good news.. Ron says the not having his truck with him isn't a problem for him, he just hates that I have to drive so much.. He ain't the only one..

I am wanting to hurry up and get the settlement thing done with my wrist. I am getting a new car with part of it.. well not new but new to me.. the van as much as I love the lil thing kills me to drive.. and I want to get things settled with whether or not we are moving to Mt. Sterling.. I love the house.. Honestly.. It doesn't matter to me where we live just so we are together I guess what bothers me is uncertainty.. I like to know what we are doing.. I am just like that I like to know what is going on and when.. If I am gonna do something I do it.. I have always been that way.. Ron takes things more slowly.. he thinks more than I do about things.. I usually know what I want and go for it.. that works for me.. Ron's way isn't a wrong way.. It is just his way ya know.. That is one of the things that make Ron and I work so well.. We have very similar personalities in many ways.. however we are also vastly different in some areas.. those differences just balance us and make us understand each other even better.. that is a good thing..

Well Chas and Chris are here to take my Ian for the day.. Y'all have fun

I'm Too Old For Two Year Old's

I didn't know I had gotten old.. I had no idea until this week.. It is only Tuesday and I am already dreaming of the weekend.. I have Ian all week.. Don't get me wrong...I love having the little guy here.. I love watching him and playing with him.. the problem is I thought I had the energy to chase his lil butt and I don't.. he wants to run.. Nanny wants to walk.. he wants to beat up the dogs.. Nanny wants to sleep.. He wants to.. well you get the picture..

I had also forgotten the simple fact that the word "no" doesn't mean much in a two yr olds vocabulary..He knows what it means.. he just chooses not to understand.. and then he giggles when I say the word to him.. cute little brat that he is.. his favorite game today has been throw yourself at Nanny and see if she can catch you.. So far so good I have caught him every time.. but, I am on guard for that one time when he throws and I am not ready to catch..

Chas.. I know you sometimes read my blog.. don't you dare infer from this one that I don't want kiddo here as much as possible.. I do.. I am just old.. love ya girl..

On to other things.. For those that read Ron's blog.. the situation with my ex is still in my head.. I want to call him and tell him what I think of what he did while he was here and what he can do the next time he wants the kids with him while he is here.. I just don't feel like talking to the asshole.. he hasn't even called to let the kids know he made it home safely.. It is funny.. he and I get along great when he stays in Fl.. It is only when I have to deal directly with him that I have issues with wanting to choke the life out of him.. I remember feeling this way when I was married to him as well .. could explain one of the reasons he is an ex huh?.. I am going to talk to him about this summer.. If he cannot keep the rules we have for the kids here 11 months of the year I am really going to have to re think him having them for a month in the summer.. It takes about a month to undo all he does in that month.. I am just tired of going through all that yr after yr.. Chella doesn't seem all that interested in going to FL for a month... Kyle does.. but last year he only stayed 3 weeks and was begging to come home.. I don't want the kids to not have their father.. but I don't know how to maintain the relationship for him.. and that seems like what I have been doing all along.. If they don't call him.. he won't call often.. if I don't make arraingments for the FL thing he won't .. I think there comes a time when he needs to facilitate his relationship with his kids and leave me out of it.. I will never keep him from them or them from him.. I am just tired of being the go between so to speak..

Oh well better get off here before the whirling dervish wakes up from his nap..

Y'all have fun

Morning Conversation Starters

While the driving back and forth to Winchester is a bit tiring..there are some benefits.. one of them being the conversations I have with the kids on the way back to lexington.. this morning we were listening to the radio .. one of our favorite morning shows.. they were talking about a New York case involving mens rights .. The case is about a guy that had a fling and the woman got pregnant.. she wants him to pay child support .. he doesn't think he should since it was a consensual act and they took precautions..

I personally can see this from all points of view.. my ex and I had 18 yrs of marriage.. he raised our 4 kids with me.. and when we split he fought long and hard to get out of paying child support because I wasn't with him..Ron on the other hand never shirked his child support when he and his ex split .. and he took on the responsiblity of my 4 kids when he married me.. actually long before we got married he was supporting not only me but them as well.. anyway.. Chelsea got to talking about what we were listening to.. she feels about the same way I do.. That in some ways women have all the options available to them and men do not.. I dont think men should get away with not supporting their children.. but what about men that want the child when the woman doesn't.. if she decides to abort the man has no right to keep her from it.. if she decides to put the child up for adoption it is sometimes very hard for the father to keep the child himself.. but if the woman chooses to keep the child the man is almost always required to pay support and in cases of one night stands.. the man often doesn't get to be a part of the child's life that he has to pay to support.. I personally have issues with the unequalness of this..

Personally.. abortion would never be an option for me.. adoption I am on the fence about but to me is a viable option if you know you can't take care of a child.. But, I do know if I had ever gotten pregnant by someone one night stand or similar situation..( not that I have ever had a one night stand) I would be willing to take full responsiblity for any consequences resulting from that.. I am an adult.. If I chose to sleep with someone I know the possible outcome.. if I got a STD I would have to take care of the cost of treatment.. If I got pregnant.. I would have to choose what to do about it.. therefore.. making the decision to have sex in the first place I would have to be ready and willing to raise a child if one were to result from that encounter if I chose to keep the baby.. I think that should go both ways.. both parties should look at it from the standpoint of owning the decisions they make.. I think fathers should support their children.. I think men should have some say so in the decision to keep or not keep a child they helped to create.. if we women have the options we do.. then men should have more themselves.. just my take on it..

Chelsea saw it from a Ron point of view.. she said that even tho she doesn't like some of the rules around here.. and she doesn't agree with Ron all the time.. she has a great deal of respect for him.. she said he has gone above and beyond any responsibility to raise children.. My kids are not biologically his.. but his love and support has made him their dad as much as their biological one is.. I think she said it well..

I know there are a million women out there fighting and struggling to get the support they need for their kids.. I also know there are plenty of good men that want to do the right thing.. and there are men that can't even get the chance to be fathers because all the choices have been taken out of their hands.. except the financial ones..

ok.. rambling and ranting over.. time to eat something and wait for Sierra and Jordan to get here for our thrift store date.. Y'all have fun..

Getting a Break

My honey.. sweet man that he is did something wonderful for me.. he probably thinks it was just the practical thing to do.. and doesn't realize how sweet it really is.. He rented me a car for the rest of the week.. Yep that is it.. he knows how tired I have been lately.. he sees the dark circles and the exhaustion at the end of every day.. he definately sees the house isn't up to my usual standard.. and although there is a practical reason for renting the car.. the sweet one far outweighs it.. With the rental I won't have to run to Winchester for the next 2 days in the morning.. and Ron needs his truck Friday for his skills USA thing.. so I won't have to worry about how I am going to get Chris to court and all that.. just in the simple act of looking online and getting me a car for the next couple days he has taken a load of work and worry off my shoulders.. thank you my love..

In other news... Chris just called me, his attorney has been talking to the prosecutor in the case.. they are willing to drop the charge to Assault 2.. which carries 5-10 yrs.. I think he should take it to trial.. I would fight.. but that is just me.. I have sent an e mail to a friend that is an attorney.. asking his advice.. hopefully he will have some insight on this situation.. I don't know what to tell Chris.. I have never been in a situation like this before.. I don't think sending a 19 yr old kid to prison for defending himself is the right thing to do.. I just don't know what the right thing would be and don't have the power to see that the right thing is done in the first place..so pending legal advice.. I will be worrying..

Well I am outta here for a while.. Y'all have fun

Tuesday Running or Not..

Today I still feel like crud.. It seems my family is generous to a fault.. they shared all of their bug with me.. I don't get strep.. I am a carrier of the bug... I am however very capable of getting the flu.. I didn't want the flu.. but here it is.. invading my already worn out body.. oh well.. at least I am on the downside of the thing now... I still feel crappy just to a lesser degree..

This morning I went to my attorney's office and signed the paperwork to bring this wrist thing to a final settlement.. It isn't what I would have liked it to be but it is wearing me down fighting this along with everything else I have to deal with.. this has been going on for over 2 yrs. It is time to do what I can about it and let the rest go.. I don't have the energy to fight it anymore..

"Snickers" is still ill.. My brother in law should be here this evening or tomorrow evening to fix the poor lil thing.. I really need my van back.. I love spending the time with Ron in the morning and in the afternoon driving to and from work.. but it is killing me with all the driving.. and killing Kyle's attendance record with being late every day.. there is just no way we can get Ron to work and get back here in time to get him to school by 8 .. not gonna happen.. and although his tardies are excused.. they don't like it when a kid is late.. I would think with the absentee problem they have in our county they would rather have the kid there 10 mins late than not at all .. but what do I know..

My father in law called me a while ago.. he wants me to come over and re install his ISP.. Ron hasn't had time to make it over there and I can barely breathe.. I told him I would try to get over there this afternoon after I pick up Kyle from school.. I hate taking my germs over there.. but he is going through internet withdrawl.. not good.. so.. If I can stand up without getting dizzy for longer than 10 mins I will head over there.. if not he may have to wait until tomorrow.. I hate for him to not have access.. but I don't wanna drive up a telephone pole trying to get there to fix it either..

Oh yeah.. about waking up at 5:30.. I told Ron he could wake me up every day like that if he wanted to.. I ain't arguing.. I have always been a morning person anyway.. so it works for me.. apparently though it didn't work this morning. He said I just kept sleeping.. don't stop trying honey.. I like waking up with you .. a lot.... ( Sorry Russ) ok.. I'm not really sorry but ya know..

I think I am gonna get off here and wonder down to the drugstore to see if they have the advil cold and sinus since I can't take the dayquil due to the tylenol in it.. I take a prescription pain killer for my wrist every day that is mostly tylenol. I don't want to OD'..

Oh and one more thing.. Honey.. I was reading "I Remember" again this morning.. and I want you to know.. I remember too.. I remember what your eyes looked like that first day when you held the door for me to leave the restaurant.. I remember your smile when you made that comment to Pam.. I remember how you looked when you asked me to come home to you that first time I had to go to FL.. I remember the look in your eyes when you sang " You Had Me From Hello" at our wedding.. I remember all the times you have held me and just let me know that you are there for me.. I remember everything about us.. and I always will.. I love you....

Y'all have fun..

Almost Back to Life..

I went outside this morning complete with pissed off look on my face.. I got up under the dashboard of snickers.... fever and all.. and I pulled every plug I could find under there.. I cleaned them off well.. and plugged them all back securely.. I tenatively put my key in the ignition and turned it.. She came to life.. I turned her off.. and back on again.. OMG!! I think it might be a miracle.. I don't know if it is fixed.. or if my fiddling had anything to do with it.. but I did get to drive to get Kyle in my van.. not that I don't love your truck honey. I just missed the old girl.. anyway.. I am going to start her several more times before Ron leaves in the morning.. Just in case this is a temporary awakening.. I have one of those drive all over the place days planned for tomorrow.. I would just as soon not get stuck in Nicholasville with a broken down van.. not my favorite town in the first place..

Chella does have strep... she called about 12pm.. the nurse said.. "Her throat is red and gooey" wow all the technical medical terms.. it is a wonder I understood that.. anyway.. I took her to the Dr. at 12:45 to confirm the diagnosis.. they didn't say a word about gooey.. but she did test positive for strep.. so she is out of commission for the rest of the school week.. Oh Joy!!!..

I have supper cooking right now.. and I am waiting for about 4:15 so I can leave to go get my sick hubby from work.. hmm all these sick folks.. wonder why the back of my throat hurts and I have a temp of 101.. oh well so goes life in our house..

Y'all have fun..

Sick House.

If you know us and live close.. Don't come visit this week.. Kyle has strep, Ron has something like strep mixed with the flu, I don't feel so hot myself and this morning Chelsea got up with a fever and sore throat.. heck even "snickers" is still sick.. this house is full of germs I am sure.. I know I am gonna go through a couple cans of lysol and pine sol and a bottle of bleach when all this is over.. there is no way I want this bug or bugs to hang around.. Well I mean I'll be cleaning just as soon as I feel like I can make it to the kitchen to get the cleaning stuff..

In other news.. there is no progress on Snickers.. she is still sitting out in the front looking lost and forlorn.. It is not that we don't love her anymore or that I don't desperately need my van back.. we just haven't had the time or energy to fix her.. I am gonna make an effort in getting her fixed today.. If I don't tomorrow will be a repeat of Monday.. I don't know if I can take that much driving for a 2nd day this week.. especially since my wrist is in a funky foul mood and doesn't want to do anything I tell it to do..

Right now I am sitting here watching Pleasentville.. I saw it when it came out.. and I really liked it then.. thought I would watch it again and see if it still appeals to me.. so far it does..

I guess I should get off here and call the parts stores and see what I can do about my lil van.. wish me luck.. Y'all have fun

The Almost Demise of Snickers

It has been a sad week for me so far.. "snickers" my van seems to be in a coma.. she isn't fully dead but isn't really alive either. Saturday afternoon I was going to pick up Kyle from his friend's house where he had spent the night Friday (giving Ron and I a lot of quiet time).. I got in my ever reliable lil mini van, turned the key, and Nothing!! No! this can't be.. not my little hoopty.. I tried again.. and again.. still to no avail.. I checked it out.. I knew it wasn't the battery or the alternator.. or any of those things.. I realized then that the sensor reading what gear the thing is supposed to be in has gone kaplooey.. this is a minor thing to bypass.. problem.. it was cold out.. and Ron and I don't know which wire is which... Sunday we got the steering column off and looked.. ok yeah.. I can work on a motor.. I can put in a transmission.. give me 200 wires under a dash and I am lost.. we put it off til Monday when Ron could get professional advice..

Monday was a day from hell in itself with taking Ron to work.. that part was good.. but it went downhill from there.. there were 2 trips to Nicholasville and back.. a 2 hr wait at Chris'attorney's office.. a trip back to Winchester to get Ron from work.. by the time we got back to Lex Ron took mercy on me and stopped for supper for us..

Ron did get the advice to fix snickers.. there was supposed to be 2 purple wires attached to the steering column that could be cut and spliced together to bypass the sensor.. ok.. we can do that.. Ron is an electrician.. I do have a working knowledge of cars.. Yeah .. Not.. there were no purple wires.. well there was one but it wasn't where we were told it would be.. so now we are back to calling for more professional advice... I may have to go find someone today to fix it.. I miss my van.. it is a good lil thing.. and although I love spending the extra time in the morning with my honey.. this driving all over is killing me.. and we don't even want to talk about what my house looks like..

Oh in case you are wondering why I call my van snickers.. it is chocolate brown with carmel accents and there are definately nuts inside..

Y'all have fun

Friday Finally

I can't explain how happy I am that it is Friday.. I need to sleep past 6:30.. I need to just chill with no kids to take anywhere.. I need to cuddle in bed with my honey.. all of those things are possible starting this evening.. the only thing that sux about it is Ron has to work late again tonight.. I know he has to get all the hours in for his internship..but it don't stop me from missing him when he isn't home..

Last night when Ron was on his way home from Richmond, Chella asked me who I was talking to on the phone.. I told her Ron.. he said.." yeah.. we love talking to each other.. having long conversations. .we have been having this one for over 3 1/2 yrs now.." I got to thinking about that.. (my mind is strange that way).. he is right.. from our first real conversation, we have enjoyed each others company and conversation.. He is funny, smart, witty and can debate or agree with the same passion I have for conversation.. those are rare traits to find in anyone, makes it even better when you find that with the love of your life..

The fact that we are both empaths helps too.. we can feel what others feel a lot of the time.. with each other that seems to be intensified to the nth degree.. whether we agree on something or not.. we can still feel where the other is coming from .. makes for a great life together.. I love feeling what is in his heart.. the only downside to this is I can feel when something is wrong too.. or something is bothering him.. lately I have felt his stress and worry at having so much to do for work.. and thinking he is not doing enough to be with me and the kids at home.. and the pressure of worrying about if we can get the house , the worry about chris or more acurately the worrying about me worrying about chris.. Honey.. it is ok.. I am not worrying as much now.. I am not thinking about it 24/7.. and as for your time at home.. when you are here you are here.. you give us all we need.. and if you are distracted at times.. it's ok.. happens to the best of us..

Anyway.. I guess I should get off here.. I have a ton of things to take care of.. including trying to locate a police report that doesn't seem to be in the system at the police dept.. it is the one about what happened to Chella, Sierra, and Justin on the 5th of this month.. the assault by an officer thing.. it seems the officer filed a report with the store involved but didn't file one with the dept.. hmmm can we say hiding something? If you don't do anything wrong, why not file a report.. I am trying to solve the mystery.. now all i need is a funky tie dyed van and a great dane... I wonder if a chocolate brown van and a boxer will work.. I can hear it now.. " we would have gotten away with it too if it weren't for that meddling redhead and her dog"... ok.. yep I have lost my mind.. I'm outta here..

Y'all have fun..

Friends, Lovers, Life

I was talking to my best girlfriend this morning.. she is engaged to a pretty nice guy.. I don't know him all that well but he is good to her and treats her kids well.. that says a lot over the ones she has dated in the past.. she is having issues about whether or not she is doing the right thing by marrying him.. I know it is normal to have the jitters as the date gets closer.. and I know it is normal to have second and even third thoughts about getting into that kind of committment when you are our age and have a life of your own you are used to doing things your way.. and to think about combining that life with someone else's is a bit frightening.. I asked her if she loves him.. she says she does.. I believe her.. but there is something else going on with her.. She was with this total loser, user for about a year.. he was unavailable emotionally, a player and I think used her for a sexual toy.. she was there.. ya know.. one of those things.. but unfortunately she fell in love with the "tadpole" (if you read Ron's blog you know the origin of that colorful name) anyway.. this man seems to have taken hold of her heart and she has had so many problems letting him go.. he cheated on her with another woman (several actually) he is living with the last one now and has a child with her.. but "L" still loves him..

I don't know what it is with women.. we seem to have the most annoying habit of falling in love with people that hurt us.. It isn't all of us.. but enough to take notice.. what is it that causes otherwise normal, intelligent, strong women to fall for the jerks of the world.. and not being able to get them out of our hearts and minds.. I know part of it is the "bad boy" factor.. I get that entirely too well. My ex was one of the bad boys.. until Ron.. that was the only type man I fell for.. I guess looking back from where I am now.. I was afraid of a man that was intelligent, strong and didn't need a mother figure to fix him.. if I couldn't fix him or at least try to then what good was I to him.. I never thought that a man could just love me.. could just like having me around.. could respect my intelligence and my outpouring of love for him just because he does.. I always felt that if he didn't need me to fix him... he didn't love me.. strange huh?...

Ron has taught me so much.. I know I am worthy of being loved just because I am me.. I know I deserve love and happiness, I don't have to be perfect all the time.. I don't have to look a certain way.. I don't have to cook certain foods.. hell I don't even have to cook if I don't have time or whatever.. I don't have to do anything.. The only thing Ron wants from me is my love.. and that I have in abundance.. I never understood that is what love is .. it is given and received unconditionally when it is real.. I never understood what the word unconditional meant until Ron.. does he like a clean house, food on the table, lunch in his lunch box, back rubs, a woman that takes pride in her appearance for him.. of course he does.. but I don't have to do any of those things for him to keep loving me the way he does.. that makes doing all of those things my choice and my pleasure.. I get it now.. I just wish I could explain it to "L".. I wish I could find her a "Ron".. I wish I had some way of convincing her she needs to just be her to be loved.. "B" was a loser.. "R" seems to really care for her.. sometimes I guess that scares the hell out of women like us.. It is frightening to know that being just who we are is enough because we don't think in our hearts and mind that we are enough.. I know that feeling so well.. my heart breaks for her.. I know I can' t fix her.. but I can keep loving her and supporting her just because she is my friend.. that is something else Ron has taught me.. I have to know when I can't fix someone or something but it doesn't keep me from loving them just the same.. that is a good thing to know..

Oh yeah.. honey.. I love you .. more than I have the words to express to you.. more than I could have imagined.. thank you my love for letting me find out that I really like me.. and for loving the me that I am with all my imperfections, Have a great day...

Y'all have fun..

At Work and Mario

I am sitting here at work with Ron.. he is in a staff meeting so I thought what better to do with my time than to get on here and blog a bit... hey I have nothing else to do and the book I brought with me will not last the rest of the day..I started it yesterday and am more than halfway through it already..I read fast ..

Both kids came with us today.. this serves a couple of purposes, It gets them out of the house so I don't have to worry all day about what John is doing.. and It gets me out of the house and with Ron.. what could be better.. Chella and I have serious thrift store plans for later today .. there will be shopping.. I need to replenish my book supply.. I am down to 3 novels I haven't read.. I have about 30 I need to take to the used book store and trade I just never seem to have the time to do those sorts of things..

The kids brought the game system and hooked it up to the big screen TV in Ron's classroom.. so in the background of my thoughts I keep hearing Mario Party.. screeching, beeping, hollering and the most annoying music known to mankind.. I know I am gonna hear this stuff in my sleep.. Now I know why I tell them to shut the bedroom door when they are playing.. Oh well at least they are having fun. Uh Oh Chella just came over fussing about the game.. Guess I had better get off here and find out what the problem is..

Y'all have fun

The Weekend Continues

I know it is Sunday evening and most people think of Sunday as the end of the weekend.. I usually do too. This weekend won't end until tomorrow night for us.. The kids are out of school.. Ron has to work.. but, the kids and I are going with him tomorrow.. all it took to convince Kyle to go was to tell him he can take his game system with him and play on the huge screen TV in Ron's classroom.. Chelsea was a bit more difficult until I mentioned there could and most likely will be shopping.. thrift store shopping at that.. she is convince.. So I get to continue to spend time with my honey and with my kids.. what could be better than that.. well it would have been nice to have the winning numbers for the 365 million power ball.. but not better than spending time with the people I love most..

On another good note.. I am feeling better.. I still get tired out easily.. going out and about wears me down.. but I can stand up straight now and I haven't been running a fever for 3 days.. these are good things.. I figure I should be back to me soon..

Thursday I had a meeting with my atty for my wrist injury.. It seems the insurance company is willing to admit some culpability and come up with a settlement.. It isn't the best they could have done.. but at least it will save me a year of court and this will be over with.. Nothing is going to fix my wrist.. I will have to live with this for the rest of my life.. I resigned myself to that fact a while back.. I guess that makes this settlement thing a bit easier for me..

Friday Chris went to court for the status hearing(whatever the hell that is supposed to be) and I won't find out what it is for another 2 weeks due to the continuance his atty asked for and got.. oh well at least Chris is not in jail and he is safe.. that is all that matters to me.. this will work out one way or another soon enough.. and then perhaps we can all get on with our lives.. I am not gonna say drama-free lives. I know me and my life until now entirely too well I know there will be other dramas.. I am just tired of the same old one..

My honey is gone to a board meeting.. or is that bored meeting? I have been to one of these with this particular group and I tend to think they are the latter.. anyway.. I miss him.. I hate it when anything takes us away from each other, especially on the weekends.. but , we both have a strong sense of upholding our responsibilities therefore, he is there.. I am here..

I think I will get off here and take my meds and curl up on the couch with a book to wait for my honey to come home..

Y'all have fun..

It's Back

Well it seems that my kidney infection is back for an encore presentation despite the "pristine" urine test of a couple weeks ago, I am now sick again.. I knew something still wasn't right.. It is my body after all.. why don't Drs. listen when you tell them about your own body? I have had this thing for 37 yrs.. you would think I would know when something ain't quite right with it.. oh well... I am back on antibiotics and ibuprofen every 4 hrs for the pain and fever.. oh what fun... I also have an ear infection, bladder infection and a sinus infection.. so all in all I am one hurtin unit once again.. I will be glad when this mess is over with.. I rarely get sick.. but when I do.. It hits me hard.. the Dr. asked me yesterday if I have had a lot of stress lately.. those of you that have been following the Chris saga are probably laughing your butts off at that question.. I just said to her.. Ummm yeah you could say I have been under stress as of late.. she tells me to cut down on caffiene, stop smoking, and limit alcohol intake.. I said I thought you wanted me to not be stressed?..ok.. enough.. on to other things..

Chris is out of jail.. he got out Friday.. the new condition of his bond is that he may not live here.. so he is living with his GF and her parents for the time being.. I understand why the judge made that ruling.. I just think it sux that my son has to live somewhere else and John is still here harassing away and no one will do anything about it.. doesn't seem quite right.. but there is good news.. At court Friday the police officer was reading the report of the so called harassment .. In the report John gave her an entirely different story about what occured on Oct 31.. he is at some point going to have to explain why he told one cop one thing and another cop a different thing.. can't wait to hear that.. I know why he told the story to the most recent officer.. he wanted to make Chris sound like a violent person that attacked him for no reason.. so the cops would arrest him.. when they didn't the first time he made up another story.. he also screwed up by saying Sierra was restraining the unknown black man.. first there wasn't any man.. second when he called the police, Sierra was with me walking lacey.. now she is a black dog.. but I don't think anyone would ever mistake her for a man.. just my thoughts on it.. There is a line in the bible that scared me when I was a kid.. "Be sure your sins will find you out".. I am thinking John's are just about to catch up to him..

Other than that.. Ron and I had a wonderful weekend together.. I love spending time with him no matter what we are doing.. it can be grocery shopping or going out to dinner.. It doesn't matter to me.. as long as he and I can be together I'm good.. I have to try to feel better today at least for as long as it will take me to get Ron something for Valentine's day.. Honestly there is nothing I could ever buy in any store that would be enough to express my love for him.. he says I gave him his Valentine's day gift with a wonderful weekend.. I say hush.. I wanna get ya something.. so There... It is funny.. sometimes we get so caught up in all the drama around here that it feels like we don't spend time with each other.. and we don't get to talk or touch.. but I feel him with me always.. when we can have time like we did this weekend.. it is more than just reconnecting.. it is me falling in love with him all over again..

I think I have used all the energy I can for now.. gonna go lay down.. Y'all have fun and a Happy Valentine's Day to you all..

Getting Somewhere?

I don't know that I am actually acomplishing anything in the Chris situation but for some reason I feel somewhat more hopeful about it.. Today didn't go as planned.. the state's witness ( arresting officer Cook) was not there.. she had not been told she needed to be.. the state has 10 days to get all witnesses in court if the person charged is in custody.. and they have to put on their case by that time or drop the charges altogether.. so.. according to how the law is applied.. instead of telling the state "too bad you should have been prepared" we have to go back to court on Friday for this hearing.. Chris' atty told me the full charges today.. I was shocked.. I had already known John lied when he called the police but now I know to what extent this man will go to lie.. he told the officers that there was an unknown black man being restrained by Sierra that was attempting to chase him down on the day Chris was arrested... There was no black man here at all.. not to mention the fact that Sierra weighs all of 110lbs and couldn't restrain a grown man if there was one to restrain..

We will all be back in court on Friday.. the atty only wants to use 2 of the witnesses we have.. Chris wants him to use them all .. I agree with Chris.. I don't care about the court's time.. they obviously don't care about Chris' time or the fact that a lie by John has now cost him his job.. or what happens to our family in the meantime.. Personally I think having more people that are telling the judge Chris has done nothing.. the better Chris' chances are and the chance of the court getting a clue about what John really is improves.. but that is just my opinion..

I also spoke with the County Atty. today about the harassment, assault on Tommy, the lies and everything else John has done.. he told me his hands are tied by policy but he did give me the number to his boss.. he is able to make a call on this.. I have called him and I will call him again tomorrow.. I want this taken care of.. I want some protection for my family for a change.. I need help here too.. So wish me luck on getting it..

Well I need to go rest for a while.. Y'all have fun..

Another Week Starts Off Badly

I tell ya.. I am thinking seriously about running away.. I don't eat much.. I don't sleep much.. I don't need much space.. Ron and I could live on a deserted island and be just fine..

You would think with all the drama going on around here I would be used to it.. oh no.. I'm not.. there was an incident last night involving Chelsea, Sierra, Justin and Tommy.. surprisingly this one had nothing to do with John.. lets just say it started over a misunderstanding and ended with Chelsea being forcibly pushed to the ground by a police officer putting his hand on her neck and pushing her to the concrete.. not a good night.. then the trip to the ER to check out her neck.. and finally bed.. where I spent the next couple hrs brooding and thinking.. I have just about had it.. I know the Bible says God doesn't put on you more than you can handle so I guess God thinks I am a lot stronger than I think I am..

This morning didn't start out much better.. I got up.. got Kyle to school... called the Dr. to follow up for Chelsea.. then I got killer cramps.. yeah on top of everything else there is that.. wooo hooo.. how much fun can one person take.. so.. I am in the bathroom dying.. and I go to pull my jeans up.. My cell phone falls out of the pocket and you guessed it.. into the toilet.. I took it apart and blow dried it.. to no avail.. maybe it will dry out eventually.. I know we have a couple of old phones around here.. I looked for one of those.. nuttin.. then Eureka!! there is the old one my mother in law had.. I put my SIM card in it only to be told it is incompatable witht that phone.. I go on another search of the house and find Chris' old phone.. I put my SIM in it and it works.. finally good news .. or so you would think.. I then realize the battery is almost dead and there is no charger to be found.. I make a dash to Wally World to get a cheap one.. and what do you know.. the only one they are out of is the one I need.. I asked the clerk to call the other stores.. they are all out of the same one.. what was there a run on those chargers over the weekend??? I did at least get the stuff I need to make the chili I have been craving for the last week.. Upon returning home I searched for an appropriate charger... we have an abundance of those sorts of things.. I came up with 12.. I went through all of them.. and low and behold I finally found on that seems to be working .. we shall see.. Chris is supposed to call me around noon.. perhaps I can cheer his day.. Hopefully mine will get better..

Y'all have fun..

Oh yeah Honey.. did I mention to you how much I love you and how much you being by my side has held me together.. have a great day baby..

Sometimes I Wonder Why I Get Out Of Bed

I am having serious issues today.. Chris got arrested again last night.. again for doing nothing.. Here is the story..

Chris, Sierra, Chelsea, Kyle and Chelsea's friend Brandon were out on the porch yesterday afternoon/evening.. John ( the asshole down the street) was outside driving his Jeep.. he was circling around the stop sign and the cut through by our house, slowing down and flipping the kids off on the porch.. trying to get a reaction from them.. he didn't.. the kids didn't react.. they simply ignored him.. Sierra came in to get the video camera to try and catch him in the act of harassing us yet again..I decided to go outside.. the minute I stepped off the porch, John's girlfriend leans out his door and flips me off.. I ignored her too..Sierra and I walked Lacey up to the corner.. when we turned around we saw a cop car pull up to John's house followed by a second one.. I called Ron and asked him to come out on the porch until I could get back home.. he did.. when we got there I got my copies of the police reports about John harassing us and Tommy and we waited..the cops came to our house and told Chris that he can't say anything to John .. to watch his p's and q's.. we told them Chris doesn't and hadn't said a word to John nor had he responded in any way to the antics John is forever pulling.. the cops left.. Chris went upstairs to play video games.. Sierra and I came inside so she could roll my hair.. Things were normal for about an hour or so... Jordan came to pick Sierra up.. the next thing I know Chelsea is coming in to tell me the police are back at John's .. I really didn't think too much of it I knew Chris was upstairs and had not been out at all..

Ten minutes after Chelsea told us the cops where out there they were knocking on our door.. Ron and I went to the door.. the cop said that someone had yelled at John about flipping off their brother and they were taking Chris to jail.. they arrested him and left. I got the story from Chelsea and Brandon.. apparently while Jordan was in the house Chelsea and Brandon were leaning against his car talking when Brandon's brother and some other guy came up.. they talked to Chelsea and Brandon for a few minutes and walked off down the street.. the brother walked in the direction of John's house.. when he passed John yelled something at him from the porch.. the boy yelled something back.. and then John came out in the yard trying to start something and the boy walked on.. next thing we know the cops are here arresting Chris.. hell he wasn't even outside and we don't know this kid..

What the cops basically explained to us is that John can say anything he wants and they will take his word for it.. he can call and tell them Chris is doing something even if he isn't home.. even if Chris isn't around.. and they will arrest Chris.. They even told us they don't have to have proof..Just John's word.. I am so tired of John calling all the shots.. I am tired of us not having any rights..

Ron and I got into a rather heated discussion about this whole thing.. he asked me if I would want to be afforded protection if I was the victim of a crime such as the one Chris is accused of.. I told him.. I understand protection.. but I was apparently misled by this document called the constitution.. it says.. that you are innocent until proven guilty.. now.. if I were the victim of a crime.. I would expect the police to protect me.. but I wouldn't go out of my way to harass someone. If I did think the person that committed the offense was doing something to intimidate me.. you better damn well bet I would have proof out the wazoo to make sure they would be arrested.. I wouldn't make up things and tell lies.. and I would expect the police to believe the other person too if I had done something to harass that person, until they were found guilty of a crime.. that is what our justice system is founded on..

So now I am back on the phone.. calling attorneys, judges, anyone I can get to listen to me.. I don't think my son should be in jail for nothing.. I also think we should be afforded some protection from John.. he does all sorts of things to me and my family and we aren't even allowed to press charges against him.. I am angry at John, the police, the court system, damn near everything.. I have taken it out on Ron.. the kids .. I don't know what to do.. I swear I am really close to having a break down.. the only thing keeping me from it is, I am the only person that is gonna fight for my son the way I fight for him.. no one loves my son the way I do.. no one is willing to go to the end of the earth to protect him but me..that is what is keeping me from losing my mind.. I honestly don't know how much more I can take.. I don't know how much longer I can be strong.. It is exhausting to have to be strong all the time.. it is wearing me down .. I don't understand why things work the way they do.. I don't understand how and why this keeps happening..

I need to get off here and get back to work.. Y'all have fun.

Asleep at the Keyboard

I am sitting here half asleep.. I know I can go lay down and take a nap and I probably should .. but I really need to work on this house today.. I have been cleaning at it all week.. that is not really cleaning but picking up and faking the rest.. I just don't seem to be in the spirit of the whole OCD cleaning thing this week.. My back is part of it.. The treatment for the back is the rest.. the Dr. gave me a new muscle relaxer yesterday.. It has seriously inhibited my obsessive tendencies.. I just don't care enough about cleaning to get off my butt today.. In fact the only thing that sounds like a good plan is a good long nap.. I am thinking I need to take these things early in the evening and sleep them off.. they work.. my back isn't hurting.. or maybe it is and I just don't feel it..

Chris has the day off.. this is a good thing.. no 11pm pick up time.. I love my son.. I am glad he has a good job and he likes it.. but I will be so happy when this boy gets his license and his own car.. this staying up til 11:30 is hell on old folks like me..

Kyle's Dr. appt went well.. he has a staph infection .. and very very dry skin.. he is now on meds and a regimen of Dove soap only and serious moisturizer after showering.. I told him there is a good side to having funky skin.. you have to take better care of it and it doesn't age as fast..I should know.. The kid inherited the funkiness from me.. I have had to baby my skin all of my life.. between the dryness now and the acne as a kid..and the eczema... there has never been a time in my life when taking care of my skin wasn't a priority..the skin care companies love me.. I should invest..

Well I think that nap is getting to be more of a reality than a wish right now.. maybe I'll go lay down for an hr or so..

Y'all have fun

New and Improved Week..

The new week has begun in earnest.. I have paid bills...Gone to the Dr... I have to take Kyle to the Dr. later today..I have returned library books.. done Chris' taxes.. and many many other things.. The improved part is that I am not sick this week and no one is in jail.. these are both good things..My poor honey is still fighting a cold so it isn't a great week yet..

The Dr appt. for me was a follow up on the kidney infection that kicked my butt a couple weeks ago.. everything is fine.. In fact the doc said my urine was pristine.. Isn't that special... My back however is in a foul mood still.. seems the kidney infection was not the only thing causing the back to hurt.. it was partly responsible.. but now the herniated disk back there is doing it's thing.. oh well at least that won't put me in the bed for 4 days..

One thing I have managed to do this week is pick up the police reports against John.. I am thinking by the time this thing is over we will have enough of those to paper a room in our house.. he isn't gonna stop his antics and I am not going to stop filing reports on him..

We are house hunting.. Not because of the jerk .. but because we want to.. there are some really cute places in Winchester.. closer to Ron's work.. better schools for the kids.. things like that.. we aren't seriously hunting yet.. but we are going to look at a couple places tomorrow.. there is one that I am in love with just from the outside.. and the fact that the ad. says "walk in closets".. that is about enough for me to invest thousands of dollars in a home.. I NEED closet space.. my shoes have no where else to go..

On one other note.. I am wondering who do I have to sleep with around here to be allowed to know the location of envelopes.. every time I look for one it is like a scavenger hunt.. I swear people around here hide them just to hear the things that come out of my mouth when I can't find one.. any way.. I am off to get lunch and take Kyle to the Dr.

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Chris Is Home

Yesterday began another day of waiting and making phone calls.. I called Chris' attorney, I called the judge's secretary, I called the prosecutor's office.. then around 11:30 I got a call from Chris' attorney telling me there will be an emergency hearing for Chris at 1pm.. and yes I can be there.. soon after hanging up from that call I get another from the judge's secretary telling me about the same hearing and that the judge has cancelled the rest of his docket for the day for this hearing.. I thanked her several times and got ready to head to the courthouse..

A note on this.. I can hear the conversation between Chris' attorney, the judge and the prosecutor... Atty: " Your honor, we need to fix this, this young man's mother is calling me every 15 minutes she is driving me nuts." Judge: " Oh yeah, she is calling me too." Prosectutor: " She has called everyone in my office, Twice." All three: "Let's get this kid outta jail so his mother will go away" ..

Anywho.. the hearing commenced a few minutes after 1.. the Judge gave the prosectutor's office hell for not doing their job correctly and not making sure that Chris had in fact committed a violation.. then he gave Chris' attorney hell for not knowing about the original motion to revoke the bond and not knowing that his client had a warrant issued for his arrest..then he said the magic words.. Reinstate the bond and release this young man as soon as possible.. I picked Chris up around 3pm yesterday.. Now I can get some sleep..

Thank you Lisa at the judge's office.. thank you Mr Larson at the prosecutor's office.. thank you little clerk dude for going out of your way to be nice to me.. and the biggest thanks is to my hubby.. Honey I couldn't have dealt with this without your unending and unconditional love and support.. not to mention some dang good ideas about people to call for help.

I was hoping to have a quiet evening at home last night.. I should have known that wasn't gonna happen.. first we had Becca and Michelle come over to welcome Chris home.. that was fine.. I like Michelle and look forward to talking to her.. then Sierra and Jordan stopped by.. don't know exactly why .. but at least they took their laundry that has been here for the last 3 days.. then the jerk down the street John.. had to start something with Tommy.. Tommy and Chella were walking to the store.. John pulls up and jumps out of his car and makes it his mission to run into Tommy.. we called the police to make a report about this.. I am tired of him harassing us and no one seems to want to do anything about it.. so every time he pulls one of his stunts I call and make a report.. at least that way there is a paper trail.. finally about 10pm everything was done and I got to go cuddle with my honey.. that is always a good thing...

I am so glad that my son is home and perhaps there will be no illness this weekend.. no jail this weekend.. maybe just maybe we will have a drama less weekend.. oh what am I saying.. drama is just part of who I am.. it will find me no matter what I do or don't do..


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Slaying Dragons

I have had it up to here ( hand at my forehead) with people who are either not in, don't know, or otherwise find creative ways to avoid talking to me.. Ron has informed those of you that read his blog of what happened with Chris this weekend.. long story short for those of you not reading his blog ( who wouldn't read his blog).. Chris was arrested on Friday for violating his bond release.. I spent the majority of Friday afternoon and all weekend wracking my brain to find out what the supposed violation was.. This morning I spoke with someone who seemed to have answers.(miracles never cease).. She works for the County Attorney's office and was the person who filed the violation with the Judge. She told me that the so called victim in this case reported seeing Chris at home.. OMG.. you don't mean it.. he was at home.. one of the two places he is allowed to be.. say it ain't so.. so instead of checking the conditions of Chris' bond release this product of modern legal thinking goes forth to get a judge to sign a warrant for Chris' arrest.. Hello Moron.. you are the people that imposed the conditions in the first place.. wouldn't you think you would know that by being at home he was complying?. Just a thought..

This morning.. I dressed in my judicial dragon slaying attire and prepared to kick some legal eagle ass.. I have called Chris' attorney.( the guy that didn't even have a clue his client had a warrant on him) and informed him of not only what the warrant was about but also the supposed violation while suggesting to him in no uncertain terms that I thought it was time for him to get off his butt and get my son out of jail NOW!!.. I was friendly.. firm.. ok.. pushy.. but friendly.. My next call was to the County Pretrial office where I told her what was going on.. they are the people that are in charge of people on bond release.. they are the ones doing the drug testing and giving permission for people on release to do things.. they also didn't have a clue why Chris is locked up.. they have a couple clues now..

Then it was on to the courthouse.. where I do believe there is a clerk needing to go home and change his shorts.. I really didn't do anything other than tell him what I wanted and let him know that I wasn't leaving until I got it.. the fact that he was less than 5 foot tall and wearing a bright pink sweater ( on the advice of queer eye for the straight guy no doubt) and that I have a certain smile that tends to chill even the most hardened civil servant into remembering they are there to serve us.. at any rate he got the information for me and even put the letters and documentation I had for the judge in the right place for me.. I thanked him and wished him a great day..

Now I am playing the waiting game.. I don't wait well .. I am patient when it comes to my kids, hubby, lines at the grocery.. but when it comes to an injustice of this magnitude.. I just can't seem to muster a lot of patience.. they weren't patient in putting him in jail for nothing why should I be patient in waiting for them to fix their mistake..

I just want my son out of there.. he did what he was supposed to do and still there he is in a cell.. what kind of message does that send.. No matter what you do you will wind up in trouble? .. that isn't what I am trying to teach my kids.. I do believe in our justice system for the most part.. I think a lot of it is bullshit.. but I do believe in the promise that justice is for everyone.. I do I do I do.. but lately it seems justice is a shadow lurking just around the corner so that things like this can come along and bite ya on the ass.. just my opinion..

I will keep ya updated as this situation develops.. but to leave ya with a laugh.. picture.. a 5ft 8 in 146lb redhead standing in front of a 5 story courthouse saying " Bring it".. I can take whatever they dish out.. just hope they are ready for me..

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Crawling Slowly Out Into The Sunshine

I know I haven't been blogging as of late.. I really have had a good reason..

It all started Friday.. I didn't feel good.. My back hurt and I just generally didn't feel up to par.. didn't think much of it.. It could have been anything.. I went about my normal routine as usual.. doing anything and everything I needed to do.. Running all over town like an idiot.. doing housework.. that kind of thing..

Saturday, the backache was still there.. I still felt funky.. still I pottered around the house.. Ron and I did some much needed shopping.. as the day progressed the sickness progressed with it.. by 5pm I was not a happy camper.. I felt like my insides were trying to get out.. and they were on fire at the same time.. this was decidedly unpleasant.. I took my temperature.. It was 101.8.. this was again.. not a good sign.. Ron and I had discussed going out singing , that plan was abandoned fairly quickly.. by midnight my fever was up to 103 and I was one hurtin unit..

Sunday..Ron called our doctor's office to get the on call Dr. to call back.. we waited about an hour and still no call.. Ron called again.. when he hung up the phone the Dr. called right back.. I told the Dr. what was going on.. he told me .."Get to the ER or Urgent Treatment Center NOW".. Ron took me to the UTC.. the doc there checked me out.. and tested me.. the tests showed that I had a kidney infection of the worst order.. he said that I had had this thing for at least two weeks and had been lucky to have not had more symptoms.. he wanted to put me in the hospital.. I didn't like that idea.. he reluctantly agreed to let me stay home and rest as long as I wasn't doing anything.. and by not doing anything he meant nothing at all.. he was adamant about that.. I agreed.. ( I don't like hospitals) he finally found an antibiotic that was strong enough for the infection and that I am not allergic to.. and sent me on my way..

Monday is pretty much a fevered blur.. Tuesday I can recall with effort.. Wednesday I felt somewhat better and went with Ron to an Awards ceremony for the tech schools of our fine state.. I probably shouldn't have gone.. I still felt like hell.. I slept the entire way there.. but I am glad I did go.. I got to spend the whole day with my hubby, and I got to hear a wonderful speaker who almost convinced me to become a teacher..( he was really good)..

Today.. I managed to get dressed.. Take the kids to school and I have done one load of laundry.. I am taking it way easy today though.. I am not going to push myself..( hush Ron and the rest of ya that know me) I am taking this seriously.. I have not been incapacitated by illness very often in my life.. I don't like it.. and even as stubborn as I am I am not taking any chances with this thing.. I am up to about 75% feeling like me again.. I want to do more than I can do.. but I am not gonna push.. so.. here I sit.. looking around seeing all the things I could be doing.. and not doing them.. It will make me crazy I am sure.. It has already made me grumpy.. ( sorry Honey, sorry kids) but, I will just have to deal with it.. I want this infection gone completely..

I think I am gonna apply for this job Ron sent me and take my happy little butt back to the couch, move the dogs and lay down for a bit..

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Highly Ticked Off

This will not be a pleasant blog.. I am pissed right the hell off.. I am glad AOL screwed up while I was trying to get to my blog this morning or this thing could be filled with all sorts of vile invective.. Anyway.. on to the story..

The guy that Chris got into the fight with on halloween has been harassing us.. he does things like walk around with a baseball bat swinging it at the people living in this house.. he grabs his testicles and penis and shakes them at Chelsea.. he threatens Kyle.. he blows kisses at me at the girls.. he also has made pelvic thrusting motions at Chelsea, Sierra and me while grabbing himself.. white guy's impersonation of Michael Jackson? I think not.. this guy is dangerous.. Chris' atty told us to call the police and document everything he does.. we have been doing that.. the thing is.. when he does these things he does them and then gets in his car and leaves.. by the time the police get here he is gone..

Yesterday he was grabbing himself and dancing like a chicken in his front yard all for Chelsea's benefit.. she came in and told me.. I called the police.. they took a report and gave us a case # then they told me to go down this morning and file a criminal charge against him.. Chelsea and I went down there this morning and talked to the County Attorney.. He tells us we can't file a cross complaint against him due to the pending charges against Chris.. He outlined our options.. we can call Chris' attorney everytime this jerk does something, we can document all the things he does with video and written documentation.. we can move..

I cannot believe that I can't file a criminal case against this guy because of the pending case against my son.. what he is doing to the rest of us has nothing to do with the case against Chris.. are we supposed to give up our home, our peace, our comfort all because he and Chris got into a fight?.. I don't have any case against this guy.. my son is an adult.. he is harassing me and my other children .. why do we suddenly lose our rights?.. I just don't understand it.. I honestly wouldn't understand it if it were Chris wanting to file a complaint against him.. just because they got into a fight doesn't mean this guy can't harass him.. ya know.. it is almost like this dude became an entity the moment he filed charges against Chris.. and is now untouchable.. that isn't what I think our system of justice was intended to do.. but what the hell do I know..

All I can say for him is he might wanna put on a smile when he is doing his little charades.. he will be on candid camera.. I am tired of this bullshit.. I am not gonna put up with it anymore and I am not one to give up.. I will catch him in the act.. I don't know if it will do any good but there will be tape.. there will be written documentation.. and the police will get to know me by my first name.. I don't cower to anyone.. and this guy isn't gonna make me have to move.. he is not going to make me give up my home.. he is not going to scare me.. and he is not going to terrorize my children.. hmm does it sound like I have had enough?...

I will be back when I am in a better mood.. I think I am gonna go find some housecleaning to take my frustrations out on..

Honey.. I am fine.. just pissed.. you know me.. I don't stay pissed long..don't worry bout me.. (like that will stop ya)

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Just Another Monday

The kids are at school..Ron is at work.. Chris is sleeping on the couch and talking to himself.. and I am doing my regular thing.. Nuttin.. I have cleaned already, typed up a resume' for Mary.. done laundry, and laid out the chicken for dinner.. I have now completed most of what I have to do today.. The only have to's left on the list are picking up kids this afternoon and taking Chris to work at 5.. woo hooo.. sounds exciting don't it?

I don't know what my problem is lately.. I feel so dang restless.. I know part of it is wanting a job.. I am looking.. I put in 4 applications this morning alone.. Most of my days I put in from 2 to 10 resume's or applications.. I know, based on the law of averages alone I should find something soon.. the problem is until then.. I am here doing nothing but vegetating.. I don't feel like keeping the house and feeding folks is such a big thing.. I have been doing that all of my life.. I started taking care of the entire household when I was 12.. so now it is nothing for me to clean and cook.. just an ordinary part of life.. Ron always comments on how well I take care of him.. I don't see it as me doing anything spectacular.. I just do the things a wife and mother does.. it is that simple..

I know I bitch a lot about not having a job.. but truthfully folks.. it is making me a bit nuts.. I long to put on nice clothes and go to the office, store, whatever.. and put in my hrs doing whatever job I have to do.. and bringing home a paycheck to not only help out around here, but to feel like I have accomplished something..

I have always been a classic overacheiver.. I had to get the best grades.. I had to work twice as hard as everyone else, just to get personal satisfaction from my job.. I still feel this way.. but ya know.. there is only so much satisfaction you can get from having a clean toilet.. Ok.. whining is done for the day.. I can cross that off my to do list..

My honey is sick today.. I really wanted him to stay home.. but being a workaholic/perfectionist like him.. I knew he would go in.. I even tried to guilt him into staying home by bringing up the old " you don't wanna get your students sick" argument.. but that was the good part of him going in for him..Just Kidding..

I just worry about him.. He was running a fever this morning.. and has been feeling pukey.. I just don't think teaching electricity today is as good a plan as staying home and being pampered by me.. but what do I know..

I guess I will get back to my job hunting.. who knows maybe I'll find something today..

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Nanny Day

First thing this morning.. I was sitting here checking my e mail and basically doing nothing.. My phone rings.. It is Chas wanting to know if I would mind watching Ian today.. I was like are you kidding.. Mind???? I never mind watching my lil Ian... I love having the little guy around...I told her.. bring him on.. she says " sorry about it being such short notice" I told her.. you don't need to give me a lot of notice to bring Ian.. Just make sure I am home.. So.. Ian and I are watching "Gremlins" and playing with Lacey.. for some reason she loves Ian and he loves her.... Malcolm is another story .. He is so big , he sometimes scares Ian.. we have taught him to tell Malcolm to " go away" it seems to be working, although Malcolm has no idea why he has to go away.. he loves kids and doesn't understand that kids are sometimes intimidated by his size..

There really doesn't seem to be much else to blog about today.. and I won't be doing a whole lot else today.. My wrists are hurting.. and Frankly.. it is just too dang cold out to do much.. I do need to go get dog food later.. I am sure Malcolm and Lacey would agree that is a good plan.. too bad neither of them can drive..

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The Year Begins..

Wow.. I just looked at my last post .. Has it really been that long.. Oh well so goes life.. I could say that I have been busy.. and I have.. I could say Ron has been on the computer.. which he has.. the whole truth is I don't think I really have that much to say..

New Year's Eve was wonderful.. we went out with friends.. one of them is a girl we don't know too well but she turned out to be a trip when she drinks.. who knew.. I just had a ball watching and listening to her.. we of course sang our butts off..well maybe not off.. just sang a lot..

The first week of this exciting new year has started off strangely.. Those of you that read Ron's blog know about the waterbed disaster.. I am happy to tell ya it is fixed.. there was a little tiny elephant earring stuck under the mattress causing the leak. Yeah Honey I know that is exactly what you said it was gonna be that caused it.. After retrieving my earring and patching the tiny little hole we filled the mattress back up with water and got to sleep in our bed last night.. I didn't even mind that it was cold.. I was just happy to not have 3 ft of me hanging off the end of the couch.. Ron can sleep sitting up.. Not me.. I can fall asleep anywhere.. but to stay asleep I have to have somewhere to put these long legs of mine..

The "bug" has been making it's rounds around here.. Chris, Sierra, Kyle, and Ron have had the worst of it.. I have felt nauseous.. but nothing major.. Chelsea seems to be immune.. The brat.... I think if your entire family is gonna be sick you should at least pretend to be sick with them... It is only fair that everyone suffer..

Today is my mom's b day.. I will be heading to the nursing home soon... I don't know if she knows it is her birthday or even if she knows what a birthday is.. but I know.. and I think after all she has been through in her life.. we should celebrate her 74th with her or for her..Maybe it is just me trying to keep her more with me than she can be.. maybe it is just that I can't face the fact that she isn't the person she used to be.. but, a part of me thinks that she is in there.. she knows.. she can understand on some level that I am still here and that I won't ever let her just fade away in that place.. I want my mother back.. I know I can't have that.. there is nothing that can keep me from hanging on to her for as long as I can..

I still have about a million things to do today.. I have managed to clean the bedroom after all the waterbed mess.. and to do a bunch of laundry.. I took Chris' boss his work excuse so he won't lose his job.. I am supposed to take Sierra to the Dr. and I still have to take the mattress back we bought and didn't need.. so.. I guess I should get off here and get going..

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Catching Up and Socks

Ok.. Time to catch up.. Christmas was wonderful.. busy.. but wonderful.. between dinner at the inlaws and dinner at one of the 5 daughters house and church and all the other things we did it was a very busy Christmas.. Can't wait for New Year's....

Moving right along to the sock thing... Never Never Never did we ridicule Ron and his sock Christmas gift solution.. We merely pointed out that socks are not an all encompassing gift.. Don't get me wrong.. I have cold feet most of the time.. I know the value of a good warm pair of socks.. but I like my Gremlins video ( one of this years gifts) and my Blue Topaz ring from last year a lot better than I could love a pair of socks...lets face it .. I would look strange wearing a sock on the middle finger of my left hand next to my wedding band.. and as far as watching a sock.. hmmm does the phrase watching paint dry suddenly seem exciting?... and Ron.. honey.. I don't think you would be able to use your brain with a sock as much as you do with the puzzle thingy I got you for the computer.. just my opinion.. Socks do have their place on any Christmas shopping list.. they are great for Grampa.. for Dad .. when you don't know what else to get someone.. they are great for uncle/ cousin bubba you haven't seen in 20 yrs who just shows up to let us know he is out.. oh wait that is my family .. not Ron's.. anywho.. I will go out on a limb here and say that socks are an appropriate gift for some people some of the time.. and anything I get from my kids or my honey is accepted as a great gift..but .. Socks are NOT the be all end all of gifts.. No Way No How.. But I do know what Ron is getting next year from everyone.. trust me honey.. you won't have to worry about Kyle the sock thief for a long long time... Love you baby..

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Winding Up and Winding Down..

With 3 days left til Christmas I have to wind up the shopping before I wind myself down.. I have a problem with Holiday Shopping.. I don't like to shop.. I may have mentioned this before.. but, perhaps I didn't make it clear.. when given the choice to go shopping with friends or have a long dental procedure done minus painkillers.. I seriously would consider the dental work.. I just don't like to shop..

Ron will disagree or at least wonder where it is his money goes.... I do love to thrift store shop.. I love garage sales.. and I love auctions.. I simply don't like the whole go to a crowded mall getting sneezed and coughed on by dozens of people, shoving and pushing to get the one of a kind OVERPRICED, piece of whatever and then having to haul it the 10 miles to the parking lot, then spend 20 minutes trying to get out of the parking lot.. NOPE.. not my thing..

I don't even like grocery shopping.. I can take a list of 50 things in the store, get them all and be outta there in 10 mins flat.. I see no reason to hang out.. I know what I want.. I can read fast enough to get the cheapest of what I need without turning it into a monumental decision.. I know when I go in there what I am gonna be cooking.. I don't need to hang out in the produce section to find that Perfect head of lettuce.. I get the best looking of the lot presented to me and move along.. I do check my bread for freshness, it just doesn't take me half the day to do it.. There is no reason for me to be there all day.. they still have the same things they had last week.. and if by chance they do have something new.. chances are it isn't gonna be something I need to study to know whether I want to buy it or not..

With all that said.. we have 4 people left on the list to buy for.. when this is done.. I will be able to relax and wind down.. did I mention I obsess about things.. I don't like shopping but I like to make sure we have everything we need when we need it.. Lordy I am a mess.. oh well .. time to get outta here and do what has to be done.. Have a great day

Taxi Driving and Being In Love ..

I haven't had time to blog much lately due to the fact that I have become the taxi service for everyone around here.. Chris hasn't worked all week because the weather has been basically crappy for landscaping.. But everyone else around here seems to need me to take them somewhere for something.. Angie has a job now she needs a ride to work.. Chelsea has been doing the last minute push with her grades and staying after school for extra credit (when she isn't having ear infections and coming home early) Kyle is easy.. he doesn't need me to take him anywhere for anything..except Christmas shopping this weekend.. he has 50 bucks and he intends to spend it.. I guess I am just tired.. I know it is not my job to save the world.. I know I don't have any obligation to Angie and Pete..I know I don't have to do half the things I do..but I can't help wanting to help.. that is just in my nature.. I guess it goes along with my trying to take care of everyone thing..

Other than running around like a chicken with its head off.. I am hurting.. my wrists (plural) are both hurting all the time now.. I know why the right one is hurting.. I guess the left one is hurting due to the amount of work I expect of it.. but dang.. It is bad enough being one handed and living my life.. but being no handed ain't working for me..

There is a wonderful side to all of this hurting.. Ron is not the type of man to comment on the lack of housework.. or complain when dinner is not on the table when he walks through the door.. or wonder what I do all day.. I went through that with my ex.. I was telling Ron last night about an experience with my ex.. I had pnuemonia and a fever of 103, I was under doctors orders to stay my happy lil butt in bed.. but I did get up and do a few things.. I knew that Ronnie would bitch if the house wasn't clean.. when he came home from work he asked me why dinner wasn't ready.. I was like.." Hello.. I am sick".. (didn't make an impression on him).. Ron doesn't understand why his sensitivity and understanding mean so much to me.. perhaps a couple of you ladies could clue him in.. when a woman is used to being treated a certain way.. and then finds someone that is sweet, kind, understanding, and doesn't treat them that way, It is kinda like moving to another planet.. Ron..I wrote a poem for you once.. "can he ever know".. re read it sometime.. it is just a fraction of how your love makes me feel..

Ok.. I need to get these achy hands off the keyboard for a while.. y'all have fun..

Un Cluttering

I have gone on a bit of a cleaning spree today.. Our apartment while being large for our area is getting a bit cluttered.. ok.. a lot cluttered.. it isn't the 9 computers or the 3 tvs.. or the 4 stereos that is causing the problems.. it is all the other stuff we have.. mostly in our room it is the clothes.. Ron has more clothes than I do.. I don't know why he has all of these clothes.. he doesn't wear 80% of them.. they just hang in the closet.. or reside in the 2 large storage bins in the basement or in the other bin in the laundry room.. It doesn't bother me that he has all of them.. it bothers me I have no place to put them..

Then there are the bulky things.. the dressers, ava's tank, the hutch.. the kingsized water bed.. all of these things are in our room too.. it just adds up to an obsessive compulsive, perfectionist's nightmare.. that would be me.. I don't mind a little clutter but there are times when I feel like all this stuff around here is closing in on me.. I know there is a plot where all of the extra stuff around here is planning a takeover of the house.. Ron is gonna come home one day and find a big pile of his clothes has attacked and subdued me.. honest.. I can see it now...

At any rate I did manage to re assign things to the hall closet.. that thing is gonna explode if I put one more thing in it.. but at least it isn't in the bedroom anymore.. I have also managed to mop the floors and catch up on laundry.. I am having a good wrist day.. I have taken my prescription meds and a couple advil.. it is down to a dull throb right now.. so I feel good enough to get some much needed cleaning done....

Ron and I had a great weekend.. lazy but good.. I like days that I don't have to go everywhere for everyone.. and I really like spending most of the day in bed with Ron.. what more could a woman want..

I did have a great phone call today.. Russ called me.. just to catch up on things here and to let me know he is still alive and kicking.. this is a good thing.. It was good to hear from him.. Miss ya dude..

Well time to go check on the honey mustard glazed chicken I am cooking for dinner and start the rice.. come on over supper is at 5ish..

Y'all have fun..

Lacey

Lacey is my 6lb mini dachshund who is about a year old and may not (after what she did this morning) be living much longer.. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself.. I love animals.. I would probably take in every stray I could if I had the room and if Ron didn't tell me NO!! It seems like every one I do take in is defective in some way.. Perhaps that is part of their charm.. The first of the defective dogs was Donavon.. he was a transvestite pomeranian with a serious personality disorder.. he would steal my bras , panties, shirts and nighties and prance around the house with them.. he would also sit in a corner and stare at people without wanting anyone to pet him or pay attention to him.. but his greatest trick was shitaporting.. read Ron's blog from last year to figure that one out..

Then there was Cleo.. I didn't take her in as much as got stuck with her.. Ok Ok Honey yes I wanted her.. this dog was not only obsessive compulsive.. but she was demon dog from hell.. she could tear things up while you were in the same room with her.. and she didn't like Kyle.. she mistook him for a chew toy a couple times.. I thought when we got her she would be more like her dad (Malcolm) I was wrong.. not that Malcolm is a perfect dog by any means but when you compare him to my dogs.. yeah.. he is an angel..

Now we come to lacey.. she is a cutie.. she doesn't shitaport.. she doesn't bite.. she isn't obsessive compulsive.. she is however the first dog with incurable ADHD I have ever met.. this dog is like a long rat on speed.. she is all over the place all at once.. and she does have a nasty habit of tearing up things.. she is in trouble today for tearing up the Christmas Tree skirting.. She is kennel trained and will go into her kennel if you tell her to go to her room. Problem this morning was I forgot to tell her..After everything I went through to get the tree up.. I was not amused by the distruction of the white, fluffy , sparkly skirting ... Oh well at least she isn't wearing my clothes..
yet..

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Pain In The Wrist

I don't have much to blog about today.. and even if I did.. I wouldn't be able to blog long anyway.. the wrist is acting up today.. Actually it has been about 3 days so far that I haven't been able to pick up anything heavier than a feather or to type for longer than 5 minutes at a time.. I am not whining.. just letting y'all know if ya don't see me for a couple of days .. that is why..

The thing that bothers me the most about this is not the pain.. pain is something I can and have handled a lot of in my life.. the thing that bothers me is that the pain keeps me from doing the things I want and need to do.. I don't like to be told I can't do something let alone being physically stopped from doing it.. but anywho..I need to get off here and heat this thing with the heating pad for a bit.. I do still have kids to pick up this afternoon and driving isn't fun with this thing hurting like this..

Y'all have fun..